Tuesday, April 1, 2008
haha back home veri soon just to collect my hp later =) so just wanted to write wad my mind wans to tell me to do
to Ms Stella Lim:
these few days it seem has been very hard for me to cope with.. with u being nice to me and suddenly change of mood to some foul mood person. it seems we both need some time off each other and make use of the time to appreciate each other.. i know u started to hate me for forcing u and stuff.. let me tell u once.. i never force u at all.. just asking qns which might have buged u.. i truely understand y u are treating me like this.. and i can pray that this will be what really happened..
it really causes me pain to see u like tis.. it resembles some1 i know who hurt the guy real badly. i really feel that it is not like u at all to do this to me.. i have seen on the weekend that u really love me and want to try to do your best to love me back.. but it seems u are so cold ytd and today ...it really seems hopeless that u wan to be back with me.. i do not know it is a test or not.. but i feel u are that type of person loyal to the core as it seems when u were with weide.. maybe that time u were young.. and blindly love some1
but this dun change so easily..i got this feeling that it is your friends who advised u to do so ...but i will still wait for u to love me back.. because my heart wont change.. becoz of this, when u treated me badly i feel anguish and pain in my heart.. i know u felt this way with weide last time.. and i am sure u dun wan me to feel this way too.. u have been trying to supress your emotions and it has hurt u a lot..
love comes and goes easily.. too bad i am a stupid guy who will wait till i die.. i sincerely love your character.. (luckily u wont see this coz u wont even bother=.=) your spirit and your heart.. you are still young and i understand that so i wont force u to be with me anymore =) just take care of urself and dun be bothered abt what i say.. let us be apart to learn how happy it is to be tgther and not apart.. maybe i also need time to relect on my own character as well.. hmm.. need to work hard on it then..
we broke up coz u made me unhappy coz of some small thing.. it was bacisally small thing.. i know i have regretted making u unhappy coz of it.. but it seems u have taken it very seriously already.. its too late to regret.. now the decision lies with u and i will still wait like wad bevan say
Alvin: should i wait for her?
Bevan: wait lols.. wait and see see how it is
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