Thursday, March 27, 2008
what i did on the 26th of march was something that was from my heart. and i did not think twice doin it.. i know by goin to your house realli suprised u . and that it was some kind of huge pressure for u to patch back with me. i could see so already that u dun wan to be with me.. i was comtemplating what thing i did so gravely wrong to make u do this.. maybe school work stress? or family stress or even some1 better than me...
u say recently u have nthn to say to me via sms and on the phone.i feel its odd. i onli came to 1 result.. it does not matter to me anymore if we are tgther or not.. because u have already lost all your interest in me and no longer have the feel for me anymore.. it your choice to stay with me or move on.. i realli love you but i will never force u to stay with me all the time...
i know u are trying hard to put it to me but u are unable to say it out loud to me.. u probaby do not wan some1 who give in to u.. probably wan some1 like abuses u or has an oversized ego...
i have done my best and i realli know u dun wan to think abt it anymore. so dun think. just act what your heart tells u..
relationships is like fishing..sometimes u need to pull and the other time u need to let go.. if not the line will snap.. i think u have considered me very fan to u.. this is who i am.. the one im seeing right nw is not the real u.. i know u are lively and love to talk a lot.. but it seems u have lost that interest in that when in front of me..
i know what i did yesterday was terribly wrong.. maybe we both was not serious abt this relationship. until it was goin to end then i felt it was realli something important to my heart. i know u will read this and it would be hard for me to put throu on the phone.. i just hope that yesterday would not be the last time i see u..
just becoz os some small thing, i say it so loud till u realli canot take me anymore.. then u told me u are too tired.. most probably u dun wan your parents to know, secondly u wan me off your heels.. (i nw know what it means to be hot on some1's heels) thirdly, u dun wan be feel sad anymore.. i dun wan to hurt u anymore.. i just feel bad doin it to u... if u think i canot make u happy anymore.. feel free to tell me to end tis unhappiness.. i will wait for u
Life N MemOries } {7:31 PM}
