Thursday, January 13, 2011
nearly over a year sinced i blogged.. now its not blogging for the sake of blogging, its just plan complains that i dun think any1 would listen to..
these few months ever since meeting new friends from my arti spec cource.. i feel that very insecure and very pissed easily compared to others.. my men in the army respects me, my fellow officers acknowledge the things i do and my rsm appreciate me the most.. but my fellow friends who are 3sg dun really put me in the eyes..
am i such a bad friend? i came to realise today at clubbing, they just shove me around like some toy, becoz i'm not that type of desperate guy, who would hold onto any type of girl and dance with them.. besides i need tons of liqour to get to a good level of high..
i get frustrated quite easily nowadays esp weiliang when he jokes too much and the lack of trust shown to me.. sometimes i feel bad influencing him to start clubbing.. it was a affiar with minghao at 1st but subsequently he got dragged in and he loved it.. even biondi dun like it anymore..
frtustration leads to anger and i start to lose my temper at him at a regular basis.. i think i've nvr done that before but getting through to him is tough and wallaby did not help.. he seems to be more attached to joshua (arty) more than anything else.. then whatever they say they wont ever share with me.. its ok since i dun really wana assiociate with them anymore.. this is for certain now..
i think part of my new year's reso was to help patch up the problems between us but i think lets just forget it.. when the basic trust is gone its gone..
Life N MemOries } {2:54 AM}
